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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Heng ah...today nv late for work...managed to reach on time...today wear my new top which i jus bought yesterday, the top wif the FOX logo infront...my colleagues kept calling me HU LI (fox in chinese)...bth...lol...liza wld be meeting me and mas after work to go watch a movie or shopping...mummy told us to stay back after work cos she wan to held a meeting wif us..sianz..dunno how long the meeting wld take...anyway liza come to my office and look for us after work...she waitied for us since 2pm...we only managed to leave the company 3.30pm...we had KFC and so coincidencely saw my bro and his gf...jus smile to the gf as we seldom tok to each other...we headed to bugis after lunch...as i told them i wanted to buy a working pant...ened up i nv buy any working pants as they r really too ex and over my budget but i bought 2 cardigans...lol...one which i aim quite long ago at urban&co and another wan which is the design tat i have been looking for long ago and a white one summore!!dirt cheap only cost me $13.90..faster grab it b4 i regret..lol...we even took neoprints together!!!hahah...so fun....we having fun and laughter trying to decorate the neoprints...as i have been spending too much money on clothing for the past 2 days, i told them i dun wan to shop anymore..i think they also tired to accompany me walk here and there..lol...so we decided to catch a movie...we went down to orchard as bugis not many shows...by the time we went down orchard cineleisure, its alredi 7 plus, the latest movie is at 9.15, so late..by the time we finish watching its alredi 11 plus..we drop the idea as we dun wish to take midnight cab hm...we went down to herren and look for the flip flogs that liza wans...but either no pink colour or too ex...in the end we rot at the staircase beside auntie anne at takashimaya and tok....till 9 plus mas husband come and fetch us hm...jus only reach hm not long ago...overall, i enjoy myself too...gonna go and bath and slp after posting this...nite all~~~swt dreams~*yawn*

life is a road now and forever -----wonderful journey

Fat Princess dropped by @ 10:33 PM

Friday, July 30, 2004

Friday again! times really pass so fast...finally wkend again!~but my mood is still the same...i jus can't help thinking of wat happen for the past few days...yesterday nite i msg him sumthing again to clear my only doubt..but the ans is still an invaild wan...i decided to cancel the 2 wks consideration and move on wif my life...i cry..i did cry while toking wif my friends...but at least i feel much better after i let out of my feelings...till now i still cracking my brain the whole day thinking of a ans, a ans to my doubts..and even a solution...but still the same..ask a lot of advice from my friends...i noe i shdn't have done that as i easily affected by my friends opinion but i jus need sumone to gif me a listening ear...although i might be depressed and confused inside, but no1 able to see that i have problem at all.. even kok yong thinks i am fine..i told him that even if i am sad here, he wld not noe..wat for forcing sumone to be wif u when he dun even wish to...luv cannot be forced...today late for work and took a cab again...haiz..jus got my pay and start to waste my money again..really mus control...thinking of going shopping after work and ask mas to accompany me...went to FOX and bought 2 casual tops and ESprit to buy a shirt...quite satisfied wif my buying and definitely feel much better after shopping..hehe...sianz..have not been slping well for the past 2 days, skin is getting more and more jailet, guess i need to go and do facial liao...going to have my beauty slp soon...

=~leaves that falls r memories that fades away-~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 11:01 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Confused...upset...*sobsob*

haiz...wat a day!!really no mood to go to work today...yesterday nite barely slp for 4 hrs then have to go to work...y mus my luv life in such a mess??y mus be me??!he msg me 11 plus yesterday gifing all the ans that i wan..but i still not satisfied!!!i still feel insecure...y both ppl in luv wif each other cannot be together???the more i think the more i feel angry..i am really bu gen yuan!!!but i left wif no choice....wat can i do??i only noe how to cry....cry for 2 hrs , the 1st person i tot of is vonvon...i msg her...in the end i call her and tok...till 3 plus then go to bed...quite reluctant to go to work today as i scare i wld break down again...dun wanna let others noe wat happen...i did go to work in the end but wif swollen eyes...colleague did ask me y i look tired..eyes red red..i jus say not enough slp...haiz...mummy tot i cry..she ask me y i cry..i say no ah..nv cry...have to act as if nth happen and be strong infront of everyone...terrible!keep seeking for an ans to my doubts this whole day!!jus can't figure y he chose to be like that...how i wish i could use a hammer and wake him up...start to think negatively again..wondering izzit he lie to me again??i wan eternity!!!i jus wan him, no wan else!!!i dun care abt the past as i noe its also my fault when such a things happen....Recently kept listening to one song that sort of reflecting how i feel...by F.I.R wo men de ai --- theres a part goes like that...bu zai ku qi, wo men de ai, guo le jiu bu zai hui lai, zhi dao xian zai wo hai mo mo de deng dai, wo men de ai, wo ming bai, yi pian cheng ni de fu dan, zi shi yong yuan wo dou feng bu kai...i really can't gif up..how hard i try..i still can't!!shd i carry on??or shd i gif up?or shd i leave it to fate???........... ;~~~~~ does our fairytale going to be continue?.......................................

Fat Princess dropped by @ 9:07 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Today late for work again!!!guess i dilly dally too much...miss the bus and waited for another bus for 10 min...lucky the bus driver today nv drive slow if not i sure curse and swear!..called Yanru i wld be late for 5 to 10 min...lucky zhun zhun i reach work at 9.40...heng mummy not ard...lol...had pasta mania wif vonvon today...i order creamy chicken and combo B...she eat spicy chicken...i din managed to finish my food as its damn damn creamy till if i continue eating it i think i wld vomit...and the soup taste really awful *yucks* vonvon also nv finish her food...cos she has no appetite...haiz..she told me abt her story that happen yesterday nite..dunno how to console her as i also having problems...jus gif her some advice only...hope she wld get over it soon...nth much happen to work...yesterday mummy told us abt the forge cheq which doesn't has a CTS watermark...she ask us to check the watermark carefully...last time we heck care...jus flip the cheq and see got any UI spray but now cannot le......sumhow nowadays more and more ppl r damn desperate for money to forge cheq...damn stuipd...make us suffer also...die die also mus take the cheq up and lookout for watermark now...can u imagine u had to held every single cheq up to the sky!!arm is damn painful sia...my colleagues always can't help to laugh at me when i checking watermark cos they say i look like dancing the Ah GO GO..LOL...sumthing hilarious happen today...shd i say hilarious or sumthing else??sumone shit outside the office handicapped toilet..muahahaha...so bad ah me...some of my colleagues walk past and smell it...and there is evidence left on the floor...kao..dunno who is the cuprit...summore all of us alredi consider adults...who still dare to shit ouside???our boss found out and ask all of us to look out for missing ppl..lol...he say he scare that person wld faint sumwhere...worest is other few colleagues who went up to 7th floor toilet also say that the toilet there smell terrible also...jialet sia...guess the person had a terrible stomache ba...hope he or she is fine rite now...sianz...reach hm today thinking of msging him..as i really got a lot of doubts to clear...i nv expect him to reply me immediately..cos i think he nid time to think things carefully...wo ai de hen xin ku! wo xiang fang qi ke shi wo bu neng...wat shd i do??!! god help me!!!Zzzzzz

Fat Princess dropped by @ 11:33 PM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Sad Sad Day :(((

Had lunch wif vonvon again...guess this whole wk she wld be joining me for lunch as no1 else in office had the same lunch time as me for this whole wk and her mum @ wk so she got to dine out...really enjoy her companion...at least i wld not be that lonely...hehe...actually we tot of eating pasta mania but we ended up eating mos burger due to sumthing happen...dun wanna elaborate too much over here...suddenly got the mood to shop 2day...guess its becos i jus got my pay!!Yippee...lol...msg my sis to ask her whther she wan to come over to Tampines to walk walk or not, she say her leg is still pain therefore i drop the idea...heng ah...save money if not i wld spend again...hee...receive a msg from him asking how am i blah blah...*shocked*?*surprised*?*happy*? i really dunno...i reply him after 1 hr as i quite bz wif my work..kept thinking of whther to reply back or not, if yes, wat shd i reply?finally i reply him... I sound cool in my replied...but my heart is bumping damn fast...kan chiong sia...lol...haiz...feel sad after having a conversation wif him through sms...memories start flowing back again...feeling the urge to cry at that moment but i bear wif it as i dun wish my colleagues to see me crying...sob sob...y luv mus be that hurtful?...where is my zhen ming tian zi?!!!
hao xiang ta~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 10:18 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

Reach hm ard 7.30 after work.Lucky today no Ot,leave the office b4 the sky turn dark... dunno y jus dun like the feeling of leaving the office when the sky turns dark...this afternoon had lunch wif vonvon, we had Yoshinoya!!maybe its becos last wk i ate it once, feel that it doesn't taste as nice as b4 or maybe i sick of it liao?hmm...*thinking of wat to eat tml*..lol..bought a dress that i saw a few wks ago, intend to buy the black wan but no more size S, so ended up buying the pink wan...kept asking vonvon and mas whther i look weird on that pink dress as i feel its kind of weird to wear jus pink colour...glad they say no..:Db4 leaving the company, donna call and chat wif me for awhile..today is her ROM day!!..she even send me a photo of her and her didi to my hp...*envy* wondering *when can i find my ONE leh*hope that i could forget the past asap...dun wanna get stuck there forever...yesterday msg dorling to tell her wat i did, she consoled and advise me which make me feel much better...really thanks her and a group of friends who always support me...guess i had to slp early tonite liao...as last few days can't get to slp and dunno y kept going to the toilet in the middle of the nite!!
Listening to: F.I.R- Wo Men De Ai

Fat Princess dropped by @ 9:47 PM

Typical
=A gal who is indulge in day dreaming=
=Always in her world of fantasy=
=Shopaholic, SHOP SHOP SHOP!=
=Sentimental=
=Timid cat=
=Paranoid=
=Romantic=
=Sensitive=
=Clean freak=
=Crybaby=