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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

I'm damn shitty tired! i jus dunno y and duno when i start feeling tired though i slp 8hrs every nite? It seems like i nv get enough of beauty sleep? I kept yawning early in the morning till even NOW! i guess my mouth has expanded due to too much of yawning. Gonna get my beauty slp after my blogging.
Yesterday is 8 yue 15...mooncake festival...the moon is the fullest on this day..i heard my colleagues saying that there is a rabbit in the moon?!rabbit?maybe i mountain tortise..i dunno this at all..heng im not the only wan..another friend also..guess what?after work..the 2 of us walk out of office and look up the sky to look for MOON! trying to find the so called RABBIT...yap..we did saw..but have to use ur IMAGINATION so that u can see it!
Anyway these few days i always make sure i'm online to browse through my blog...WHY? cos i jus feel curious abt sumthing...i feel weird, wondering y sum ppl jus dun wanna reveal their identity and act mysterious...wat r they up to?sumtimes it even make me feel scare cos of their unknown identity...i believe they r my friends..no doubt..other ppl could also browse my blog wifout knowing who the hell is ME..but u noe..gers instinct or six sense r most accurate...i suspect sumone..but i wld not reveal here..even if it is that person..he can deny if he jus wanna hide from me...now there is this another person who trying to play mind game wif me?! i start to have lots of ????? on my head...really gonna thanks them..i killed quite a lot of brain cells ever since these ppl appear...
Have been quite bz wif work lately...OT since monday...i guess this is also y i always tired though i have sufficient slp...jus hope that tml wld be a better day...
Time to slp...ZzzZzz

Fat Princess dropped by @ 11:04 PM

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Sudden emotional...i feel like dropping tears again

...i think its all becos of the song in my blog...stephanie sun -liao jie...my poly friends's all time fav! this song protray exactly how i feel right now at this moment...theres this part goes like that...yin wei liao jie shuo yi hen shang xing...so true hur~
I miss my friends esp my poly friends! they seems getting busier and busier...i dun wanna lose in touch wif them or even other friends in any ways...i wanna meet them!! i dun care! ;p i noe i behave like a small kid but i jus wanna noe when u all wanna go wild wild wet hur?

Fat Princess dropped by @ 3:24 PM

Love simply SUXz!

I'm back again...after *counting* only 5 days...i admit i still not quite fine...i kept thinking of the things that had happen...DUH...hate it..i hate it why the devil of mine wld start being active whenever HE appear...which always turn out to be a sad ending! I wonder shd i be happi that he still in my life, at least he din disappear from me? i think its enough!...i jus detest it when i had to cry everytime becos of him...y can't i be firm enough?y can't i be the cruel and bad person who ignore him whenever he cum back?y am i always be so kind and soft hearted to everyone including HIM?! i guess it all becos of the word lonely? it seems like the friends ard me r having BGR problem...all becos of GUYS! FUCK! y guys always hurt gers who truely luv them?!claiming and showing sum hints that they like or luv them but y ending up hurting them again and again?! though cant jus blame those guys, i admit gers r stupid too jus like me? but if they r not so then how the phrase " Love is blind" come from? Actually i sort of have a liking to this particular guy...shd i proudly say that this guy likes me too ;p...he ask from my friends my number a couple of times but hey i wan him to ask me instead of asking ppl for help. i dun intend to approach cos i quite confuse at the same time...scare he turn out to be another wan who hurt me again though he doesn't look like one! but looks r deceiving isn't it? thats is how i always fall in luv wif the wrong person. watever it is, jus let natural take its cos...
Anyway I decided to occupy myself fully from now on...trying to stop myself from going backwards. yeah..my friend help me to book for my advance theory...this is my 2nd attempt..though alredi gave up long ago...but since sumone acc me and yesh wish to make myself bz too so y not?jus giving it a try, who noes i might pass this time? hee

Fat Princess dropped by @ 1:00 PM

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

How i wish i could go for a short getaway...i really wish to breathe a little more...nv going to face any problems anymore...hoping everything wld goes fine...I need sumthing badly --- a shoulder to cry on...

Fat Princess dropped by @ 9:54 PM

Monday, September 20, 2004

Alert: (This is a real life story. Although it last for 23 pages, it's really too good not to be read. I read it b4 but wld like to share wif u all...)

I met her on the net, how? I can't remember, but it seems to me that it is this 'little theory’, which I declared in the cyberspace that caught her attention. If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house. Do I have a million? No. That’s why I don't have a house. If I have wings, I can fly. Do I have wings? No. So I can never fly. If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can't put out the flame of love between us. Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off? No. That's why I don't love you. That's me, a typical science student. First you come up with an assumption, then you fit a suitable conclusion. If the proposed assumption doesn't stand at all, then everything is just bullshit. I guess this is what they call 'unromantic'. But she is an exception; she actually mailed me and said that I am an ‘interesting’ person. 'Interesting'? What a word to use on me, it's like using 'faithful' on Mr. Clinton. I thought this girl must be a low-IQ organism, or suffering from serious brain damage. Anyway, her nick doesn't seem so bad -FlyNDance- that's quite a unique one. But I was warning myself: hello, this is the virtual world of Internet. Who knows what might be lurking behind a beautiful nick. Talking from experience, most of the time it will be a 'dinosaur' in disguise. The only difference will be whether it is a carnivore or a herbivore but I know she is way different from a 'dinosaur'. She is special.... So I guess its time for the appearance of FlyNDance.

Ever since she mailed to tell me that I am 'interesting', I was always wishing to meet her in #AJCRR. Too bad, lady luck was just not on my side. So I can only reply her letter to tell her that I will start to train myself to become an 'interesting' person, just to show that she is far-sighted. She replied my reply, I replied her reply to my reply, and she again replied my reply to her reply blah blah blah... Oh no, I just started a chain-reaction. Actually what interested me the most is this paragraph she wrote in one of the mails.... 'I dance swiftly, amidst the crowd. Your glance on me be it surprise, be it admiration, it ain't going to stop my rhythm. Because it's not your glance that made me dance, it's my heart of youth.' I simply cannot relate this girl to any of the 'dinosaurs'. But if she really is a dinosaur, I am willing to let her have her fill. Tye, my best pal unfortunately, noticed my little affair with FlyNDance, and has been perpetually warning me about this. "HELLO! You don't even know what she looks like, why take the risk?? Maybe she is a guy!" I can't blame Tye for his ignorance. Ever since he was dumped by Sally in Secondary 4, he has become a renowned 'playboy'. As the saying goes: "Once bitten, Twice shy". In this case, after Tye was bitten, he has mastered the art of skinning snakes alive, and making them into soup. But he got all the factors to be a playboy; I always think he is the 19 year-old version of Brad Pitt. Tall, handsome and got this tongue that causes diabetes in every women he targets. I don't think he can even remember how many girlfriends he has had. I went online that night, log onto channel AJCRR and yes! She is there. Before I can get over the surprise and the daze, she sent me a message. "Hey Slorr, so late liao haven't sleep ah?" Now what? Now what? Ok ok, I had to calm down first. I swallowed hard on my saliva, took a few deep breath. Now where is that Tye when I needed him most at such crucial moment, somebody to tell me what to say to her. How am I going to attract her with my pathetic humor, which has gone stale. "Slorr, me in a foul mood today. Can't sleep, you leh?" MOTHER'S (direct translation to Chinese), what Slorr Slorr... Now when I read it twice in a row, I am beginning to feel disgusted in that nick Tye gave me. Tye said that: "Who knows, it might attract some innocent gals in talking to you." "I am not feeling very good too. So let's sad together." Finally squeezed a sentence out, but I can already feel droplets of sweat forming on my forehead. Actually I am not in a bad mood; I just wanna follow up her topic that's all. And if she asks for the reason for my feeling down, I can say: "Since you are feeling down, how can I ever be happy?" I know it sounds mushy, but Tye said: "MUSHINESS IS THE FUNDAMENTAL TO ALL COURTSHIP." And gals are a very weird species; they trust their ears far more than their eyes. So instead of doing 10 things to impress her, why not just say a sentence to move her. "Ok, but you haven't greet me leh." DAMNIT!.. how can I forget simple manners to gals. To think they call me MR COURTEOUS in school. If this thing ever leaks out in school, I would lose all my female fans. "Nice to meet you, miss long-hair." I've been wishing that she's keeping long hair. Tye said that: "FlyNDance... hmm.. she would either be longhaired or a desperado, 'COs when gals dance, only 2 parts of them may fly: hair and skirt. So if she doesn’t has long hair, that means her skirt flies when she dances, AH-HA!!.. this has a certain sexual hint in it...haha.." "Eh? How you know I got long hair?" BINGO! Heaven is on my side this time. It goes to prove that she is not a DESPERADO. Yes! "Not only that, I also know you seldom wear skirt." I increased the stake, if I am correct this time, peace on earth forever. "Err... I guess you are right lor. But how you know one?" "Just guess." "Ok lor. Hey Slorr, tell you what, me tired liao, you coming online tomorrow morning?" "Ya, why??" "Please please please say the you coming too, if not I am going to kill myself for letting you go tonight. I'll see ya tomorrow at 10 am then. Good night." "Er.. should be today at 10 am.. ok.. good night too.! " I just blurted out a last sentence ....Offline. Suddenly I was so impressed by my performance just now.

But is the season of spring really arriving for me?? I wish............... Slorr, what a coincidence ahh" "Yeh, I am not late." "Ya lor, so qiao." Girls are weird, I thought we already had an arrangement, why do I have to pretend that it’s not. They must have watched too many movies, and like to think that guys they met due to the thing called 'fate' is the best thing that can happen to their love life. "Slorr, you talking nonsense lah." "NONSENSE? Ok, let me tell you what is nonsense. Summer's beach, the guy must be good at running, with broad shoulders, dark complexion with a tint of redness, sparkling eyes and loud laughter. Then he will call out loud the name of the girl, running towards her, carry her and spin 3 rounds anticlockwise." "Slorr, you siao liaoz ahh?" "I siao? Ok, let's change a location then. Deep in the mountains, the guy must have long hair, gotta have the look of an artist, carries a sketching stand, a few pieces of drawings, and you can see birds stop over at his side admiring his work. And there will be a girl who’s the model, most probably naked." "Slorr, but these all very romantic mah." "ROMANTIC? Hello miss, romance only survives in novels and movies. In real life, the guy on the beach may step onto broken glass or the girl may be too heavy which tore his arm muscles. Birds may just clear their waste on top of the guy in the mountains, or he might get a thrashing from the girl because he comments on the excess fats around the waist and hips." "Slorr, you hate romance?" "I hate romance? Nope, I am just using my knowledge of statistics to get a deduction, that guys must be TALL to be romantic, not HANDSOME!!! Some love novels even portrayed the guy as normal looking, but no one dares to challenge the height of him! I object, because I am not tall." "?Slorr.... objection overruled..." I think I am really outstandingly bo liao, talking to her about these until noon. "Slorr, are you hungry?" "Ya, you leh?" "Yes, guess it’s time for lunch...Slorr.." "Then do you think we should?" "Slorr, I am just asking. I don't intend to have lunch with you." "Ok, good. I am not romantic, neither are you." I had lunch with Tye, we talk about the conversation with FlyNDance this morning. "You moron. Told her you are not romantic, you siao ah? You have disgraced me man. How can you make such a big mistake?" "....I...I..." Tye grabbed a chicken wing with chopstick, and I can see the trembling of the hand and the wing. "There are 3 'don'ts' in chasing a girl... One, don't forget to be romantic; Two, don't be too honest; Three, don't be too stingy on the sugar in our speech. In mandarin, we say 'nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai', you should know this." "This I know, but it has been a controversial topic over centuries. Women aren't really that, cheap" "So why would they only falls for 'bad guys' like me?" "That's because 'bad guys' are usually romantic. Those 'nice guys' are usually, dumdums. So she would rather choose a romantic 'bad guy' rather than any of those dumdums. In math we call this 2C1, understand? dumdum." Oh, Tye is talking about math! Now I understand. No wonder I have always been left on the shelf. "In another words, gals wouldn't mind if you are not tall... if you are not handsome... they can bear with your inconsiderate acts... can forget your stupidity... but they can never forgive if you are not romantic..." "Come on, this is so exaggerating." "Hey, most women have a 'knot' for romance, just like most men have a 'knot for virginity. To women they just can't understand how precious the thin layer of membrane is to men. Same thing, men can't imagine how important women treats romance." "This is bullshit! How come I've never heard of that." "The key word is 'knot', if you can untie it, fine. But how many had actually succeeded in that. Practically none." "Ok, fine. Now I've done it. So what should I do to remedy the situation?" "Face it. You are hopeless already." I promise you I'll have a drink with you when you and her are over." You SON OF A ######! . Midnight. I am trying to concentrate on my physics notes... F=ma, v=u+at... It's really a wonder that nature can be explained by just a few formulas and equations, and this we call science. Then why is astrology and palmistry being labeled as superstitions? Science should only be one of the ways to explain truth, what can't be explained by science, it doesn't necessary mean that it's unreal.... Close to 1 am. Since I can't get anything into my head, I shall try my luck on net then, maybe she is there. "Slorr, you here." "Finally, good night to you " 'FINALLY'? Strange word to use it here. What is she doing here at this hour? Must be feeling down again. "Yes, it is fate that brought me to you at this moment." I am trying very hard to convince her that I am a bit romantic. "Slorr, nothing to do with fate. I waited for you for one hour liaoz..." "Sure or not? For what?" "Talk to you mah or else I can't sleep." "You sick is it? Go see doctor lah " "Slorr, let's continue our topic. What do you think of relationships that began from the Internet?" Oh my god, how should I answer her now? "It's... it's very... romantic..." Indeed I am not a good liar, even my words are shaking now. "Slorr, you bluffing. You not romantic one mah." GAME OVER. I am finished! No choice but to drink with Tye. "Slorr, you lagging? Or just daoing me?" "No, I am wondering why is the sky so chio tonight?" "No no no. Don't try to shift the topic, Slorr." Sigh. I give up. I asked for it myself. "Actually I think relationships started from cyberspace is considered as ROMANTIC, cos romance gives people an impression of unreal, and cyberspace is virtual." "Slorr, that's interesting." "Surfers keep a safe distance from each other and usually 3 types of people are produced in this way. The first type.... The first type are those who present themselves on net with their secondary personality'. Usually all of us consist of multiple personalities and in everyday life, what we present to the world is the 'primary personality', with the secondary one being suppressed, or maybe we don't even realized this other trait of us deep inside. So Internet is the place where this side of us is revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge." "Is it true? What about 2nd type?" "The 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind of man/woman he/she would want to be. There's bound to be 1 or 2 characteristics that you particularly admire, too bad, sometimes these characteristics are just couldn't be found in you. Cyberspace is the perfect location for this transformation to occur." Slorr, you blowing cow, is it? Type 3 leh?" "I am not blowing cow, I read it from an article of TIMES magazine! Type 3 will be those who transform themselves into characters that are impossible for them to become in real life. For example, if you are a girl, you may act as a man on net. You may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if you want." "Hmmh.. That's pretty amazing." "The first type is the 'faithful' type, 'cos its his own personality that is being presented on net. The 2nd type is the 'foolish' type, 'cos he knows only how to admire others always forgets his own strong points. The 3rd type is the 'pathetic' type, 'cos he is wishing 4 some impossible." "Slorr, then you belong to what type? Me leh?" "I don't wish to believe you are type 3, 'cos I am not. I crossed the possibility of type 1 'cos its too common, because I think you are special. Being able to attract you, I think I am at least a bit special. So we belong to type 2." "Type 2, then who you wish to become? Slorr.." I certainly would like to become a person like Tye, humorous, romantic and eloquent, 'cos these are what I am lacking of. "Slorr, what about me?" "you? I don't know. you want to FLY and DANCE, probably that means you wish to fully enjoy your youth while you can. But if this is something you wish yet you can't achieve, then there's 2 possibilities: 1, you are aging, 2, you are leaving the world." I think I said something wrong, cos she didn't sent me anymore message after this. I began to blame myself for being so perverted, why talk about these things? I should have discussed with her whether ZOE or FANN, who should be the queen of Caldecott Hill. Damn that TIMES magazine! Poisons my mind. Maybe she is lagging. So I waited... and waited. Girl, its just a few minutes, but it felt like several hours. I want to apologize, but do not know how to start, until she sent me this message: "Slorr... let's meet..." Without hesitation, I used the hand that I had used it over 18 years to wipe my ass, typed 'O-K'. I am supposed to meet FlyNDance tonight , 8pm, at the entrance of McDonalds the one beside YMCA. That's the best time and place to meet a girl you have never met before, according to Tye, 'cos they would have taken their dinner by that time which means we can simply go inside the Mac and have some fries and coke. She will be wearing a whole set of coffee theme attire and I will be wearing my usual blues, this is our way of identification. She told me she is not those 'cute gals' I may think she is, I said never mind, I am not Brad Pitt either. Then she told me she has long ago given up on this hope already. "Slorr, you are early." While I was idling, a girl tapped my shoulders from my back. Although I was already mentally prepared for anything that's going to appear in front of me, I was still astonished by this girl who stood in front of me now. If not for the coffee theme and that 'Slorr', I would think she is only asking for directions. She is one of those 'chio bu' that can only be found on Orchard Road, which I usually see while crossing the road. Maybe I suffered from a serious concussion due to the heavy blow, my mind was extraordinarily calm. "Had your dinner right? I think we shall go inside the Mac first." "You are pretty smart huh? A good way to save money indeed." AIYA! She knows me so well, I can only give her an innocent smile back. Since she's so pretty, I ordered 2 LARGE cokes, and even ordered TWO packets of fries. "This time you treat, next time I'll let you treat." I am not falling for that, miss. But I am glad she mentioned 'next time'. "Slorr, are you disappointed when you saw me just now?" DISSAPPOINTED? Are you drunk? "Why do you think I will be disappointed then?" "Cos I told you I am not cute mah, so you must be quite disappointed when you saw me" She is making zero-sense, but I know she is just trying to hint that she's actually cute. "Then why did you have to lie that you are not cute?" "Slorr. I said I am not cute. I didn't say I am not pretty." #$%$##%^*&%$@!!! "But you are also quite decent looking what it's not like what you described to me too." 'DECENT'? A very vague word. To many gals, decent=boring. One good thing is that she didn't lie to me about the fact that she is keeping long hair. She also has a fair complexion that reminds me of HL milk I take almost everyday. It is now only that I found out she is from ACJC, but had spent her first 3 months in AJ. Sitting in front of each other, we talk about many things. From her obsession with coffee to my hobby of watching movies. BTW, she had completely shook off my misconception of 'if she is pretty, she is brainless’. She appears to be an attractive girl, both physically and character wise, talking, smiling to me, occasionally being a little sarcastic and nasty. It's like a dream. We left the Mac at around 10 pm. Since it's still early, I decided to send her home and fortunately, it's just Ang Mo Kio, two MRT stops from mine. I would have second thoughts if she's staying at Pasir Ris. "Slorr, congratulations! You are officially permitted to date me from now on." She said this before the lift door closed.

Back at home, I realized that I hadn't asked for her real name, maybe it's the influence of that stupid Tye. Tye told me: Never ask a pretty girl her name the first time you meet her, cos there are already too many wolves out there dying to know, so she will be more interested in you if you act bochap. Then why didn't she ask for mine? Don't tell me there's a female version of Tye telling her not to? It's again 1 am. Time to meet her in ajcrr. "Hi! Slorr you tired?" Of course I am tired after all the surprises she presented me, I would go straight for my bed if not for her. But why is she here also? Isn't she tired too? Long time no see how are you?" "Slorr you siao ah? 2 hours only leh... miss me?" "A)Yes B)Of Course C)Abuden D)Dying to see you E)All of above. Answer is E. Seems like she is really tired, even the smiling face are yawning to me right now. "You wanna go for a movie tomorrow?" Maybe I should ask her now, while she is half asleep, hoping that she will blur-blurly click 'OK'. "Should be no problem. What show?." HOOOOORAY!! I am cheering for her fatigue. "We decide what show tomorrow. Anyway what's important is watch with who. Not the show." Tye's favorite line, I am just borrowing it. "You should go sleep now lah." "Wait one little while. You haven't tell me you tired or not?" "Ok lah, A bit. You leh?" "I am exhausted but have to say good night to you first. Slorr, if not I can't sleep." "Me too." I can't believe I am doing this SILLY business right now. "Ok I tell you what I count 1,2,3. Then we log off together." "Ok good night Slorr." "Same to you" "1..." "2..." "3..." I never talk whenever I am inside a cinema, and now is the best time for my mouth to rest, so I spent the following 3 hours to admire this much-talked-about movie of the century, Titanic. I am not a romantic person, so it's perfectly understandable if I can't really appreciate this motion picture fully, except for all those stunning special effects. But something struck me when Jack said to Rose before he sank into the deep..... "Rose, listen to me... listen.... winning that ticket was the best thing that had happened to me... it brought me to you....and I am thankful, Rose.. .I am thankful...." Suddenly I felt much fortunate than Jack, because I don't have to risk my life to board Titanic, all I have to do is to switch on my PC every night. But he's one lucky guy too, because he knows how to draw, and just look at how slowly he was drawing Rose, that made me blame myself for the lack of this talent. But to her, this movie wasn't just about drawings or special effects. I noticed that packet of tissue paper she was holding in her hand. and just when Rose said: "I promise... I will never let go, Jack... I’ll never let go.." She opened up her sling bag and here comes the reserve handkerchief. Damn that Celine Dion, why on earth did she had to sing that "MY HEART WILL GO ON at the end of the show, for all the female species inside the theater, its like "MY TEARS WILL ALSO GO ON". "Ok, movie ended. Let's go." I stood up, speak to her gently, worried that every single word I breathe out might just crush onto her, and kill her. She continued to sit on the position, looked at me with her beautiful eyes that just came back from a swim. After a while, she said "Slorr, movie ended, but life goes on. Am I right?" I nodded my head. But I just wished somebody might give me some clue of what she was saying. Finally we managed to leave Orchard Cineplex, since its still early, we decided to take a walk down the street. Along the way, she seems unusually quiet. So I guess Tye was right about the 'TITANIC FLU', he said that gals often got so mentally distressed after watching this show, and it's the best time to launch an emotional attack on her, that's why Tye had watch Titanic for over 5 times roughly. Her eyes were focused on the path or the crowds but I know her mind was still left on Titanic, sinking with her, waiting for somebody to pull her up. I just kept my mouth shut. I know I am not a good swimmer. We walked to Plaza Singapura. Suddenly she stopped in front of a Christian Dior counter. "Slorr, have you read a novel called 'Fragrance'?" "Err..nope. Why do you ask?" "Look at this 'DOLCE VITA' from Christian Dior. It's what the guy bought for her girlfriend in the story on her birthday. And he told her 'DOLCE VITA is French, meaning 'SWEET TIMES'" She pointed to a bottle of perfume at the counter, but I was more interested at the price tag around the neck of the bottle. "Oh... is it?" "Slorr, then do you consider today as 'sweet times'?" "At first I do, but some points are deducted since you started crying." "That means it can only be considered a little bit sweet, I'll buy the small bottle then." I insisted to pay for the perfume as her birthday present from me since I know her birthday is coming soon, this kind of saves me a lot of trouble of finding a present for her. Luckily it's just perfume, or I would have to pawn my underwear if that guy in the story gives her girlfriend diamond or gold bar. "Are you hungry? Wanna sit down and have something?" "I don't have appetite, what about you?" "You eat, I eat..." Her eyes are red again. I am such a fool. Finally got away from the noisy crowd at the MRT station, walking on one of the streets of AMK Ave 6. Contrastingly, it's so quiet now that I even can hear the rhythm of her heartbeat." "Slorr, do you know what's the correct way of applying perfume?" I shook my head.! In fact, I had never used a perfume or cologne before, medicated oil maybe. "First you apply some behind your ears, then your neck and wrists. After that spray some onto the air, then walk through it." "Sure or not?" "In that case this little bottle won't even be able to last you for 3 days" "Slorr, shall we try?" "We? You go ahead. I am a MAN." She opened up that DOLCE VITA, behind her ears, neck then the wrist she applied some and she really did spray some onto the air!! WABIANGZ!! Expensive leh! Finally she stretched out her hands, facing up like enjoying the raindrops falling on her face. "Hahaha...." "Slorr, this is so fun! Now its your turn." She went through the same procedures with me and I can feel the coldness of her fingers. Maybe it's the perfume, I guess. "Slorr, get ready, I am going to spray!!" I imitated her. Face up and walked through my first perfume rain. "Slorr let's have another round!!" " WHAT!! Serious?" My money isn't easy to come by leh!! Before I can collect the broken pieces of my heart, she had walked through her second round. She was even more excited this time, hoping around, likes her nickname. A flying and dancing butterfly. Late night of AMK, the street smells unusually nicer right now. Until we finished the whole of that DOLCE VITA. "DOLCE VITA is exhausted." "I guess this sweet time shall end now too. Slorr, I'll go up now. Tonight 1 am, I won't be online, and you are not to do so too." "Huh? But why?" "Go online at 12pm tomorrow. You will know.... Remember, only 12pm..." She turned and walked into the lift. At the same time, I saw an obvious pink patch behind her neck, which is visible only now because she tied her hair. I looked up towards her window on the 4th floor from below, but it never light up. I switched off the light in my room. Engulfed in the absolute darkness. I wished to have the same kind of feeling as her right now. I realized in complete darkness, the easiest mood one gets... is loneliness. She must be lonely right now, half asleep. I almost can see a beautiful butterfly, turning to ashes amidst the sea of flame. And that patch behind her neck.. from pink it became red. Then burgundy. Slowly, it swallowed me was it the cause of that can of beer just now? Suddenly I felt cold and shaky. And that coolness seemed to have come straight from my heart, the rate of my heartbeat was an exponential function of time as it got closer to 1 am. USE A DIFFERENT NICK!! Checked.. She isn't there; my heart was beating fast. But the temperature remained below healthy level.... -=~@~=- Finally it’s 12 p.m., excited as I was, logged on the net, yet there was still no sign of FlyNDance. But there's a mail from her: Dear Slorr, At first I thought it will be easier for me to settle down in the darkness.. recollecting memories we have shared... but all I felt was loneliness..... Can you feel it too?... I still can't change the habit of logging on at 1am... so I used a different nick to sneak into AJCRR... you don't blame me right?... ... you weren’t there... should I feel glad for your obedience?.... you said both of us belonged to TYPE 2... the foolish type...maybe you are right!... 'COs I really do admire those who dares to fight for their desires... I stroke my hair gently when you said that I am leaving the world... and a few strands of hair fell..... No!... doctor told me its not a terminal disease... and doctor aren't supposed to lie!!?... I still can live like a normal person... BUT CAN I ? FlyNDance... is it really something I wont be able to do?... After the first meeting with you at Mac... I started to realize that you are not only a virtual being living in the cyberspace... in reality you are strong, gentle and sensitive.... I can feel the defense Wall of my heart is slowly breaking apart.... I am defeated... I tied my hair today.. 'cos my fren told me that I look more attractive this way... I want you to remember my face as it is today... 'cos after today... everything may change.... But why didn't you ask for my real name? ..that’s why I never asked for urs... I am a girl mah.. =P... do you realized how I wish to have something more than a nick to take along with me? ...Slorr... thank you for the DOLCE VITA. Finally got a taste of what sweet times are like... but I am really sorry. ??.I just couldn’t bear to say goodbye..... Since it started from a mail.... it should end with a mail too.... Its been 3 months and 2 days since the very first mail... not a very long time but it isn't short either.... our story began from me... and I will end it. Maybe its what you said... 'Internet is fast and convenient, but it isn't perfect'.... I can send you my thoughts right away... but not my tears... It’s about 5.30am now.... time to go.... by the time you receive this mail... I would be trying to settle down somewhere else.... I don't know.... Good Bye With lotsa love, FlyNDance After reading her mail, I felt as if I had just experienced a roller-coaster ride which almost derailed. She had shown me the other side of her, soft and sensitive. For a couple of months, I was trying to hypnotizes myself, to suppress my feelings whenever I started to think about her again. Perpetually I was telling myself, she is just one virtual character that fly and dance in the net, but never in the real world. I became a fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the Internet and anything that has to do with coffee. Hide myself behind the piles of lecture notes, behind the crowd of people, trying to get rid of this thought of missing something in life. But I failed. I found out that its not that I don't miss her, its just that I had forgotten the passion that always comes along when you are having something hanging on your mind all the time. Its like I cannot breathe, its just that I had forgotten the fact that I have been breathing in and out for the past 19 years. I can hold my breath for a while, but not forever. I have to find her! "Err... I am looking for ... er..FlyNDance...." "HUH??..." 'Huh', this is the exact word I was expecting from her. She seems to be FlyNDance's elder sister, 20++, looked quite a beauty too even without any makeup. But of course, still can't be compared with her. I explained to her my purpose for knocking on the door and told her that I am no stalker whom she might think I am. Surprisingly when I told her my disgusting nick, Slorr, she appeared to be rather excited and quickly she scribbled something on a small piece of paper and handed it to me. "You should go and see her. SGH, Room 3-425." -=~@~=- This is the first time I've ever stepped into the Singapore General Hospital. It's a dust-free space, everything looked so clean, tidy and arranged. But I don't like the feeling it gave me... I entered room 3-425, she was there, in a deep sleep. I stood by her, watching. Her hair was still as long as before, laying across the soft, white pillow. Her face looked roundish now, I know it's the side effect of the medicine. And the pinkish-red patch that was on her neck, had spread to her face appearing in a shape of a butterfly. Nevertheless, she was still the most beautiful butterfly I've ever seen. Her eyelashes twitched slightly, she must be dreaming, what's that in her dream? McDonald's fries and coke? Sinking Titanic? Or the rain at AMK Ave 6? The room was getting darker as the clock approaches 6pm. I wanted to switch on the light. I hate to see her lying lonely under the shadow of a patient's room. But I am worried that the sudden light rays might disturb her dreams. While I was in a dilemma, her eyes opened slowly. Her eyes were wide on me, then she turned away suddenly. I can only see her back at this moment. She lost weight. After a long time, she turned to face me again, rubbed her eyes and smiled.... "Slorr, you are here!" "Yes, nice weather today, isn't it?" "Ya lo! r, sky also very chio today? Right? Heehee.." SKY VERY CHIO... I can still remember this was the conversation we had in one of our AJCRR meetings." But she didn't realize that it's raining today. "Slorr, why are you standing there. Sit down." Thanks for reminding me. I just found out that my legs were numbed due to the several hours of standing. "Slorr, you lost weight." ME? I thought I should be the one who's telling this to her!? "Slorr, you hungry? Had your lunch? Food here isn't so good. That's why patients like me always slim down a bit. Apart from that, it's quite ok. But sometimes I feel really bored without a PC here to talk to you.." "Slorr, how's your mid-year? Sure did very well right?" WAIT A MINUTE! You are the one who's lying on bed right now not me! Yet, I had nothing to ask her actually. Because I was there to see her, not to find out the answers to those questions. Maybe now its the time for me to utter some touching lines like in the case of a movie. But I am not a Romantic person... moreover... Movies are fiction. Life isn't. -=~@~=- I just wished that she could leave this place as soon as possible back to AMK Ave 6, back to ACJC, back to where she belonged. And I promised she won’t be alone anymore, because I will always be there. After a while, her mum was here to see her. Around the age of 50, slightly overweight. Other than the cheerful smile, she didn't really remind me of FlyNDance. "Err, I think I’ve gotta go now. Bye bye auntie." "You....You..." She sat up straight in a sudden, like if she'd experienced a tremendous shock. "I'll be here again tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow... until you leave this place..." Before I went back home, I went to Plaza Singapura again to buy that Christian Dior Dolce Vita... and I've got the biggest bottle this time, that she can even swim in it. I try not to close my eyes that night, I want to go to her as soon as the first sunray shoots into my room.... "Slorr.. you are here.. I’ve been waiting for you for a long time..." "Had a good night's rest?..." "Oh... I didn't allow myself to fall into a deep sleep because I know you won't wake me up when your here." "Then you should take a rest now." "Err, since you are here already, I don't think I can..." I gave her the Dolce Vita, and we'd agreed that we would dance in the rain in front of SGH main entrance the day she's discharged. I dare not look straight at her, because there's a butterfly on her face. It was only last night before I leave SGH that I found out she's suffering from an illness called ERYSIPELAS. What the clergymen would term the BUTTERFLY DISEASE... But what I like is the coffee butterfly that is able to dance around freely not that pinkish-red butterfly that settled on her pale complexion. Moreover, what is a butterfly if it can't fly? "Slorr, why are you looking at me and not talking?" I don't know, because I noticed that she's getting weaker physically. I had a bad feeling about this. "Slorr, I am thirsty, can you get me a drink?" I am not leaving her at this moment. I can still remember a movie about this guy who went all the way to get red bean soup for his girlfriend who's on sickbed and to find her lying silently on the white bed sheet when he came back... never to wake up again... "Are you trying to get rid of me, like what's in that movie?" "Slorr, movie is movie, life is life..." MOVIE? LIFE?.... "But I thought you just had a drink? Anyway, so what can I get for you?" "Ultimate Ice Blended!!" This is a hospital leh!! Did she think I can find Coffee Bean everywhere on this island? Like McDonalds, what's more coffee wasn't suitable for her at that time. "Err... coffee isn't good for health, order something else, ok? "So you know coffee isn't good for the body too. Then you should cut down on your intake also, ok?" I saw her smile appearing and there's a shine in her eyes. I realized that she’s just trying to tell me not to drink too much coffee in the future. My heart seemed to have suffered from a heavy blow. This is not good. A taste of pH7 has started to fill my nose. If this is not going to stop, tears might be the next thing that appears in front of her. I recalled the chapter on reservoir and dam in physics textbook. Quickly applied the knowledge on myself. Even if it's just a few droplets. "Ok, I promise, I'll try my best." "And try to sleep earlier in the future and don't skip breakfast..." "It's important to you and don't be too obsessed with blue. It makes you look troubled and....." This didn't sound good. It's like giving the final instructions before she. I can't bear to let her continue. "Ok ok, I'll go get you a drink right away." "Slorr, is the machine far away? If it is, then its ok, I don't want it anymore." From my mental calculation, men would take 67 steps while women would take 85 steps to reach the vending machine right at that corner. Plus the time taken to purchase, average would take a total of 1.8 to 2.1 minutes. Not very far. "Quite near." "Slorr, come back quick. I don't want to be alone for too long... I hate that feeling." I didn't answer her. I just increased my pace.... ************************* ************************* "Eh... its late already... go to sleep..", my mum was nagging at me again. "Ok ok.... 10 more minutes..." Until today, FlyNDance had left for more than 2 mths. I still logged on at 1 am every night, but onto channel DOLCE-VITA which was created by myself, with Slorr and FlyNDance being the only 2 nicks inside, for 10 minutes. Although she won't be able to fly and dance in real life anymore, but I still wish that she could continue to do so in the virtual world. Even Tye has given up on me... "She's gone, why are you still doing this? For what?!!" Yet, even if that's the case, I can't allow her soul to be left at the corner of loneliness. Because she said she hated the feeling of being alone. I still remember there was a heavy downpour on that day. When I reached SGH they told me... A coffee butterfly flew away from her room at around 1 am last night.... After that... I can't remember... I just knew that I stood at the bus-stop for a whole day and I was all wet because of the rain. Even my face. I've been trying hard not to think of her over these 2 months. I've been hoping that her face won't appear in my mind every moment that I breathe, but it's like hoping that the sky isn't blue; the grass isn't green; the stars do not twinkle at night... Basically, I was hoping for something impossible to happen. I can't believe that I am of Type 2, even in real life. Did I cry?.. NO WAY!.. I said it before, I am not a romantic person, and this may be due to the deficiency in the hormones that constitutes emotions. Whenever I had the feeling of pH7, I'll browse through those 'FWDS:jokes...' Attention will then be shifted by those dim-wit, low-class jokes... So now everything is back to the way it was before I met her 9 mths ago. Tye is still flirting around, and I am still the old decent=dull me. But I’ve stopped taking coffee and beer. "Xing ah, is this for you?" My mum handed me a letter she picked up in the mailbox this morning. I was surprised when I saw 'To:slorr...' written on the envelope. That's for me I guess. I opened it up, there was a piece of writing inside, and another coffee envelope. Slorr, I am FlyNDance's sister, I think this is how you are addressing her. I am sorry that I do not know your real name, although we'd met before. When I was packing her stuffs a few days ago, I found this letter with your name and address already written on it. So I posted it to you, because I believe this is what my sister intended to do. Best wishes, Xiao Wen The letter was sent 3 days ago, and there was another: 'To:slorr...' Followed by my home address written on the coffee envelope. But this handwriting was a lot nicer and the words seemed to be moving swiftly...like in a joyful dance. I have no time to figure out how she has gotten my home address. Did I give her in one of my mails? I tried to control my trembling hands, slowly, I opened up the envelope. I found a photo, and a half of a movie ticket inside. Apart from these, there was a blue letter... with the familiar DOLCE VITA smell on it. The photo showed her, standing on a piece of grassland, wearing the same coffee theme attire on our first meeting at McDonalds. Something was written at the back of it.... Dear slorr, Coffee represents Pisces.. that's me. Blue represents Sagitarius.. that's you. A blue letter inside a coffeee envelope.... know what I mean? Seeing me, do you feel like drinking coffee now? Stop drooling! FlyNDance I smiled.... bitterly. The contents of the blue letter is simple: If I have one more day to live, I want to be your girlfriend. Do I have one more day? No. Too bad. I can't be your girlfriend... not in this life. If I have wings, I want to fly down from the paradise just to see you. Do I have wings? No. Sadly. I can never see you again. If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, but it still can't put off the flame of love btw us. Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off? Can. So yes. I LOVE YOU. FlyNDance My chest was torn apart... tears broke through the dam I constructed a long time go in a jiffy. As proud, as emotionless as I was, I can't pull back the salty wetness that’s on the whole of my face anymore. She has changed my 'little theory' and gotten back what I'd owed her... tears for 2 months.... -=~@~=- Titanic ha! s won 11 awards in the Oscar, including best picture. Yet, Rose wasn't the best actress under that category. So if it's sad in a movie, it may not be so fortunate too in real life. And in reality, should Jack hold on to Rose and 'Never let go?' Maybe he shouldn't be worried about this. 'Cos that beautiful coffee butterfly will continue to fly and dance in his heart.. forever...' ~THE END~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 8:42 PM

I thought we suppose not to talk again? I tot i told him not to msg me again if he wanna see me happier?i tot i told myself to ignore him? but y am i doing the opposite things?

sumtimes i wish i had never met u, becos then i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.

Fat Princess dropped by @ 8:22 PM

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Going IMM later wif my dad mum and youngest sis!

last few sunday i always wanted to go there but no chances...jus now my sis ask me whther i wanna go today?haha..think she simply can't stay at hm on sunday wan! Wld be visiting the shop Daiso later cos heard from podders of fp saying that the shop sell all products at only $2!Hope i could find some useful stuffs over there and grab it home~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 2:19 PM

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Jus back from my company dinner at Sakura International Restaurant...they really provide wide varity of foods from japanese cusine, oysters, finger food, deserts and lots more...only $26 pax but of cos its not i pay thats y i use the word "ONLY" ;p...i think the most "wu hua"(worth in hokkien) is sharkfins! usually only get to eat during wedding and also need to pay to eat but this time is company pay so eat as much as i could! but i only eat 1 bowl la cos i was damn full till i wanted to vomit so much. Anyway i really eat quite a lot except for those raw foods like salmon...this place is definitely suitable for my poly kakis cos they simply LUV salmon a lot! We even have some STUPID games b4 we can start eating and a lucky draw b4 the whole thing end...each winner get a 20 bucks voucher which its not enough to pay for a LUNCH? I always not lucky so of cos i nv win anything! lol..They even stated that they wld charge us 5 bucks for every 100 gramm of waste food...i din finish my food of cos cos i veri kiasu, took a lot of food at one go..so i hide some leftover food on each bowl, smash it flat and stack another bowl on top so that they wld not noe! haha
I even managed to steal?to be frank i TAKE a packet of POWERPUFF chocolate milk and a packet of aloe vera back home! Overall its quite a gd place for dining! Food always make me slpy...thats y now i kept yawning away and going to turn in soon!

Fat Princess dropped by @ 11:01 PM

Friday, September 17, 2004

Have been quite bz for the past few days..always went out early and reach hm late...finally today get to reach hm slightly early and update my blog. Receive a gd new from minghui saying that one of my poly friend give birth to a 4 mth old son liao.Wah, i'm surprised and happi for her.It has been abt 1 and half yr since we left poly and ever since we sort of lost contact.Finally she email us and send us her gd news and latest condition! But too bad i am unable to see the pic she send us..any kind soul (i think only minghui?)out there?can send me?;p
Actually today 17th sept is a memorable day for me...i got together wif him on this date 2 yrs ago...i wonder he wld remember?today out of the blue he send me a forward msg..which make me wonder he remember?or jus feel like sending me a msg?anyway i always like to comfort myself...hee...
Tml i wld be attending a dinner held by my company, we r having dinner at Sakura restaurant!Wld get to see all the staffs working from other branch too and maybe those big big bosses! I intend to eat a light breakfast and starve till the dinner time and eat as much as i could!kiasu i noe but free wan leh...summore i can't eat much when it come to steamboat or buffet so mus starve myself 1st so that could eat more !kekeke...
Btw i got a news to announce.......I CUT MY HAIR SHORT LIAO!!!
minghui, i did it! haha...real short this time, i feel quite uncomforable when i 1st cut this hair cos i simply can't see my hair end when i pull it up or even touch my hair when i stretch my hand to the back. I decided to cut my hair last min so i bk my appointment last min too, lucky i'm quite satisfied wif the results. I actually spent 4 hrs doing my hair !!!the same time taken for rebonding?! I even had a backache the next day...heng everything worthwhile la..turn out not to be a disaster. hee People who saw me wld always pop up this qns: hur u bear to cut ur hair meh? lol but heng they say look not bad on me...if not i think i go bang wall liao...one of my colleague even say i look as if i am from canto pop?!*puzzled* one say i look fierce?i tot i look fierce even b4 my new hair cut??lol.. anyway i really mus thanks vonvon who acc me throughout the whole process...think she read almost all the magazines the staff given to us liao...;p thanks..u really a great pal!

Fat Princess dropped by @ 11:32 PM

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Old but sweet memories

Jus now received a msg from donna telling me that i alredi had 4 error logs jus for yesterday! wah..i guess i am the 1st wan who break the record? Our side implement this rule saying that if we make more than 3 error in a wk we have to visit our boss for a TALK..haa..only the 1st day of the wk and i broke the 3 errors records! Think they jus scaring us and hope we wld minimise our mistakes? *Pray hard*
Anyway i jus gone through some of my old albums and saw some of the old pics...decided to share wif u all~

Sis and me~i am the wan on the left! even playing
wif Wu Bi Gao can be veri entertaining when we was young!

Tian zhen wu xie~

Which hairdo is the most IN during 80s? Look at my dad
and mum u wld noe the ans!
We always call it "Pong Sai Gao"

This is the shortest hairlength i ever have throughout
my life! Wld nv intend to cut that short again!NO WAY man!

I love to smile whenver i took photo..never failed to show my
set of teeth whenever i smile even when i had only 2 teeth like this?

or even i was reluctant to take a pic jus like this?

Fat Princess dropped by @ 4:52 PM

Saw quite a number of nice items while browsing Abercrombie online web..definitely not intend to buy cos its damn expensive..jus post here for fun!

Sweet hur?

Pink!my fav colour~

such a nice and sweet dolly dress!

nice pants!

Nice combination of colours!luv this!

White always matches well wif everything!

I simply luv MINI skirts haha

Sexy wor...boxer for gers!

Fat Princess dropped by @ 2:18 PM

Spot the fake smile~

Out of the 20 smiles, which ones are fake? you need around 10 min to play this game. but it's fun and at the end of the game, they will tell you how to spot the fake smiles. have fun!

here is the link: http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/smiles/index.shtml

I score 9/20 only!duhz~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 1:42 PM

FINALLY~

Hey friends, i am BACKKKKKKK!!!!

y i am so happi?..cos i finally can create posts liao! For the past 1 wk, my pc tio virus (dun wori, it has been cured so u all can open my email safely), then whenever i open my posts the text box r all blank.It was really not ME if i dun update my blog for 1 wk rite? My brother managed to KILL the virus and yesh..here i am to tok rubbish again...going to flood my blog wif my rubbish liao hehe...I got so much things to update...actually not a lot la..jus usual stuffs only..hee..btw u all shd have notice that i changed my blog template le..dunno y leh..maybe i see my template a bit sian so decided to change or u all can say i got too much time liao lo...i feel this is a better wan compare to the previous wan..even vonvon gif me more than 1 thumbs for it..haha...i even put my neoprint of me wearing the crown wan...suit the theme rite??hee...also change my music to the drama The Outsiders subtheme...a really nice and sad song. The moment i changed my etemplate i msg Minghui to inform her cos this ger ah..jus can't view my blog, all these while she click the source function so tt she can view what i has post..anti 56k user FREE! ;p Toking abt my blog, remind me of a incident last few wks, sumone actually post at my tagboard commenting abt me!!!!if comment abt my blog i accept and improve on it but the topic was ME?!?!

wat the fuck?!

Anyway decide to ignore this kind of person...mus be a Ru Siew Wei Gan de xiao hai!
ok..dun intend to corrupt my blog toking abt her or even a HIM?shall starting toking wat happen for the past 1 wk...last friday catch the movie cinderalla story wif mas and liza...the ending---->of cos a happi wna la...haiz..how i wish i am the ger..the cinderalla ;p i kept imagine i am the cinderalla and HE is the prince. i wonder when i could stop imagining me and him as the actress and actor in every romance movie? Wondering when i could stop thinking of him whenever i am at pasir ris?

When i wld not tot of him when i smell a similar perfume he used? Forget about everything of him or maybe small little things of him? Trying my veri best now and wish me gd luck! Hmm..sori ppl..my post is rather long so maybe u all wld wan to go for a toilet break b4 continue? ;p
Part 2
Hmm..did anyone watch sunday 933 music award on last sunday?i did watch but i was bz switching between channel U and channel 8. My dad even suggest we watch it at kopitiam cos they wld have 2 tv for 2 channels..haa..S.H.E attend the music award..i really like Hebe a lot..feel that she is cute and pretty..always wanted to cut my hair like her but oh my~ i do not have the courage! Btw i seldom compliment gers r pretty wan leh..hehe...and pls..i am straight ok though i kept saying this or that ger pretty and i luv looking at chiobus...lol..
Work wise?ok..i mention abt in my previous post that i hope i wld not step into the toa payoh branch again rite??guess what?today i went there again..to learn CPF...i was thinking what my company really doing?i tot we r dealing wif cheqs?but y we also need to deal wif CPF?i really confuse abt my position again...i always say i am a process operator cum i-tran operator cum watermark checker cum sorter now i got another new title which is CPF operator or watsoever?but anyway got OT i dun mind..haa...this wednesday going down again cos they r short of manpower, they even estimate..nono..shd be confirm that they wld work till 2 or even 3am!!cos high volume period..i can imagine i wld be damn damn loaded if i got my pay next mth?haha...but dun ask me to lend money though i am loaded ok..;p yaya..i veri loh soh i noe but pls forgive me cos i really got 1 whole wk unable to post anything up here..got too much stuffs to update..maybe u all wan to look sumwhere else to let ur eyes take a short break? ;p
Part 3
Jus now on my way hm i call ah siao...cos minghui told me she cut her hair!!!!she have been saying this for hmm..minghui say 3yrs?haha..finally she did it. Tot of asking her to cut together but too bad...really wanted to a new image by cutting off my long hair...wanted to have a jappie new look leh..think i shall really consider veri carefully (hey my hair is my LIFE leh)..2 wks for consideration

...Ah siao wld definitely remind me to cut when the time comes~*wink*
Actually though i was typing away here but i kept running out of my rm to watch Jacky Go Go Go..cos cos...my laogong appear inside

!!! If u all got watch u all wld noe who is my laogong liao..

Yeah!!tml on leave again..can slp as much as i wan and get ready for war on wednesday nite!

Fat Princess dropped by @ 1:59 AM

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

this is how my face look exactly now...i lack of slp last few days cos i have been staying up late to watch The Outsiders. Finally finish the whole vcd..ah hao die in the end

Heard that they r now fliming The outsiders part 2 and he wld appear too!haa...can't wait for it to release soon~i even bought the soundtrack though i only like 2 songs in the whole album only..haa
Today i was damn damn so tired cos i woke up at 6 plus early in the morning! I slpt at 1am last night meaning i only had 5 hrs of slp! last time 5 hrs to me nutting but now if i slp less than 8 hrs, u wld see a walking panda..i wondering is this the signess of getting old? I was told to go another branch at Toa payoh to learn credit card...supposed to reach there 8.30 but was late by 30 min even though i left my hse at 7.30!The officer of that branch was unhappy abt me and another colleague who went wif me. She even email to my officer to complain. Officer know nvm, worest is my boss also noe abt it!!wat a bitch sia..late is better than never appear wat..mus tell the whole world we r late meh..shit her ah..feel like ah bish

her. i feel so grateful and lucky that im not working there...although the place is much more spacious than ours..but the whole environment sucks..outside see like factory..toilet worest! like public coffee shop toilets! summore got sun rays shining in early in the morning.. if i work there, i think even i go toilet also mus apply sun block! Cannot take it liao...die die also mus slp early tonite..ciao 1st~

Fat Princess dropped by @ 9:33 PM

Sunday, September 05, 2004

I wondering izzit when all ppl come to a stage, the friends they once have wld leave them one by one? It seems like one person wld had less and less friends when they get older...i dunno wat abt others but definitely its happen on me..when i was young, i got lots of friends..closed friends...even best friends...when i got into sec sch, my best friends wld defintely be from my sec sch...then wat abt my primary sch friends?We either become stranger or fall into those hi and bye categories or even u recongnise them, wanting to approach them but scare they couldn't remember u. We wld lose some of the friends whenever we got into a new stage of our life. Toking abt sec sch friends, ppl always say sec sch friends wld be those who wld be wif u till u old. i dunno whther is it true cos a close friend of mine suddenly told me she feel that our relationship become shallow. I feel that its jus becos we seldom meet up. but she dun think so...i really feel sad abt it...becos from our group of 5 buddies, the 2 of us still kept in contact and meet up frequently until last few mths we never contact cos of some stuffs. She was toking till its seems like we wld not met up anymore and even told me abt her leaving for further studies? I find it weird but nv ask further. How i wish we could go back to sec sch days whereby the 5 of us still closed and often play ard. Though i dun deny that there is other friends who i consider closed friends like my poly friends...but the 4 of them r still consider the wan who went through thick and thin wif me...maybe only time wld prove everything...

Fat Princess dropped by @ 6:46 PM

People out there..did u all notice there's sumthing diff in my blog? haaa...i jus put a picture of me wif the hmm think its a bunny?Stupid face rite..i think i really act cute too much in despite i alredi 22..haa..okok..enough.Haiz..one day passes jus like that. Nv really did anything today, nv get to go out too. I wake up only at 4.30pm yesterday Saturday afternoon. Hasn't been on bed till so late ever since i start working. Received a lot of missed calls and sms from my friends but ignore them cos i really too tired!haa...Sumthing that make me duhz is donna they all kept calling me jus to tell me sumthing that is not that important? omg...lucky my temper is gd if not i scold them up side down liao..haha..feel naesous once i got up from bed (hmm am i pregnant?) haha...i spend my whole day watching my new bought vcd 'Dou Yu'. Wah seh...this taiwan ou xiang ju is the 3rd drama that make me cry till my eyes swollen. It is abt 3 guys has been gd friends since young and what happen to them when they grow up, they get into secret society blah blah...though nv got to finish watching the whole show cos its consist of 20 dics, heard from my colleague say that the ending is a veri sad wan. I wld surely recommend it to my friends esp ah siao...really worth watching...summore got shuaige leh..guo pin zhao...hee
Jus now bought a few vcd when i was out for dinner. One of them include Coyote Ugly. Although its a old movie but tot of watching it again and not i pay also ;x . Toking abt dinner...wah..angry sia, i had dinner at kovan shopping hawker centre. idiot sia, lots of ppl nvm, the problem is most of the food alredi finished when the time only 7 plus 8?! tot of ordering mee pok but have to wait for 15 min! then i cancel my order and order "lor mai gai", the boss say its not hot so i wait wait wait till i FULL. i dunno y since i work in my company, if i am hungry and can't get to eat i wld become angry and pek chek..haha. the phrase a hungry man is a angry man is so damn true hur.

Fat Princess dropped by @ 3:52 AM

Saturday, September 04, 2004

I think i mus be crazy or maybe too tired till my brain is not working well, although my bio clock alredi off and my eyes r damn so slpy but i die die also mus update my blog b4 i went to bed. As what my previous post had mentioned, one of my colleagues last day today, i even told myself eariler on that i wld not cry but haiz...even my colleagues prepare a packet of tissue for me haa...cos i simply too fragile and emotional...yesh i did cry but its all started becos of mas lo...i cannot see ppl cry cos i wld cry too...anyway really sad to see him leave leh although we r not that close. Lucky i did ask for his number b4 he leave (imagine i noe him for 2plus mths i nv got his number at all lo!)
But anyway jus catch up wif my poly kakis to celebrate ah siao 21th birthday! Glad that she is the last wan who wld be celebrating 21th birthday haa..but times really flies, remember she ever kept saying that she is 18 yrs old whenever ppl celebrate birthday but hey ah siao, once again, i wanna repeat that u no longer 18 anymore ok ;p Happy to see Linda ard too cos its has been quite some time (ard 2 mths) nv met up wif her as she has been too bz wif her stuffs. After dinner, they suggest to go ktv, as usual, we always went from one place to another place to check out the cheapest prices...this gathering consider a long wan ever since all of us start to step into the working world...guess the next gathering wld be at penny wedding le...enough of what i had type, i found out the more i say the more i am awake..haha..better get to bed now le...ZzzZzzz

Fat Princess dropped by @ 3:56 AM

Friday, September 03, 2004

Tired but wish to update my blog as i hasn't been online for the past 4 days alredi. Last few days been bz wif my work, high volume therefore OT till today. Its tiring but i enjoyed my work a lot hee. Today bought quite a few cb album from TS, they r having great sale...i even bought my lao gong aka jerry album..dirt cheap 9.90 still got discount summore only cost me 8.91 in the end! Its not pirated summore! Although the packaging is diff from other cd shop and wifout free gifts but im fine abt it cos i only wan to hear his singing. Heard lots of review abt his album, all say that he improve a lot, i agree too..haha...also bought jay album, although his style of singing still the same, the music still nv change but thumbs up...great album though dun really noe wat he singing wifout seeing the lyrics..haha...it is really unusual of me buying so many cd at one time, i nv bought any cd b4, i dun have the habit of listening to cd unless i dl it from irc...cos i jus feel its a waste of money...its cheap plus songs r really nice so i bought. hmm...tml is kok yong last day of work...although he work at our company not long ago, maybe 3 mths only? but seems like he work here for quite long...although nv really tok much wif him but still consider quite click wif him but of cos not as click as mas..hehe...kok yong, i noe u wld browse through my blog sumtimes, wish to say thanks for helping me everyday...thanks for making me laugh whenever u tok ;p, hope u wld not only play hard but also work hard in ur studies...i wanna see u be a business man 1 leh..hehe...take care...

Fat Princess dropped by @ 12:19 AM